*I have decided to share a choice few entries of my memoir.*
December 13, 2016; 2344 hours
1 Corinthians 12:9, “What no eye has seen, nor ear heard, nor the heart of man imagined, what God has prepared for those who love Him.” I’m an impatient person. Although the Army has me well-trained in waiting with the infamous “hurry up and wait” commonality in the service, I hate waiting. I like to have immediate results. I’m not sure what has bred me to be this way, but all I know is that this is part of me as a miserable sinner, something I work hard at to change. Yet numerous times throughout my life, God’s will for me has always proven to be above and beyond what I have expected and wanted. It is truly humbling because He continues to bless me beyond what I deserve in spite of my disobedience. I do not escape His discipline, which is that of a Father, but He still showers me with His love. Though I know this is His grace and mercy, I will never fathom it, though I will always rejoice in Him with songs of thanksgiving. That is the only response my spirit can muster. I always need to remember to humble myself to wait on the Lord, for His will for me is far better than anything I could ever plan. “The heart of man plans his way, but the LORD establishes his steps” (Proverbs 16:9). While God’s child makes his plan, YHWH leads him to where he needs to be.