*I have decided to share a choice few entries of my memoir.*
February 24, 2016; 2156 hours
In my mind I have a list of reasons why God should not forgive me—a long list of sins with the dates stamped on them of which I cannot forgive myself. Satan haunts me in which he reminds me of my past and current sins. As I look upon the Cross, however, I remember my Baptism. There upon the Cross remain my sins nailed to it. Highly favoured by God, He forgives before I even ask. I do not deserve His forgiveness, but deserve has nothing to do with it. Christ did not die for my sins so that I might earn forgiveness. His life and death has earned salvation for me. I thank God today that I am freely forgiven in Christ.
Free forgiveness does not mean freedom to sin, hence Romans 6:1-4. How can we who died to sin still live in it (v. 2)? Indeed, we are simul iustus et peccator, but an unrepentant lifestyle does not constitute the life of the child of God. For if we believe and are baptised, yet continue an unrepentant lifestyle, Christ’s sacrifice is in vain and thus died for nothing. How can we as saints call others to a life in Christ if our own sinful lives remain untransformed (Romans 12:1-2)? By such irresponsibility, His sacrifice is in vain. Christ did not call for mediocre followers—just the contrary. He said, “If anyone would come after Me, let him deny himself and take up his cross daily and follow Me” (Luke 9:23). This is to follow Him whilst in the midst of suffering—mediocre Christians cannot (indeed, will not) do this. Our God is not a mediocre God; ergo, He has not called us to mediocrity. Indeed, Christ will spit such indifferent “Christians” from His mouth (Revelation 3:16), for they are like tepid water—unbecoming and unwelcome. These “Christians” will claim to know Christ, but He will say, “I never knew you; depart from Me, you workers of lawlessness” (Matthew 7:23, in the context of vv. 21-23).
We must not be like tepid water. We must rather be richly supplied with the things pertaining to God (Matthew 6:20) and be pure (1 John 3:3), for God’s will for us is our sanctification (1 Thessalonians 4:3).